New information from a dr. does not mean that I react and change what I’m doing.
It all comes down to trust with my doctor. I finally met a surgeon that I trust and believe in. Dr. Trek Soo has come into my life and he has offered me an ounce of hope.
I had none and I’ve reached the point where I am willing to consider additional surgery now that this dr. has confidentially offered me a happy, stable life. I can’t say pain-free but he understands my expectations.
One of the main reasons I was able to relax and trust in him was due to something he said to me. He looked me in the eye and said, when a patient has cancer, the dr. sees it on the scan, operates, and the patient either lives or dies. With an advanced spinal deg. disc disease, its a slow death. Most days, I lay in bed looking outside watching the world go by. I don’t have a fulfilling life.
I cried. He understands. He told me that he has been doing this for 30 yrs and he would only offer surgery if he believed that he could and would do the same surgery on himself. If the answer is yes, then he offers a solution.
He explained to me how the prior surgeries were not done correctly; therefore, I now have broken hardware and fractured vertebrae. The 2 prior surgeons, who shall remain nameless, did the typical fusions that fused a few levels and the last one fused the entire lumbar. Just not done effectively.
A spine like mine requires an aggressive procedure that uses steel rods and fuses tip to stern. Sounds scary and it is. But it makes sense. I’ve committed to 4 surgeries and Dr Soo is confident that he can improve the quality of my life. I can be the type of grandma I’d love to be.
I’m being fused T2-S3. Then we are re-doing C3-C4. His speciality is revisionional surgery. The last 2 surgeries will be with each sacrum.
My original surgery date was May 27 but now I’ve been moved to mid-June. My immediate reaction was disappointment. Then I decided to go with the flow and trust. I let it go. Much easier then stressing over something that I can’t control.
My next post is going to discuss my belief in pain meds and what I’ve chosen to do.
The theme of today’s post is TRUST.